Black Coffee spills on air, the crippling effect self doubt had on him at the beginning of his career.

Speaking with 947’s DJ Fresh, Black revealed how he felt the spotlight he received wasn’t deserving.

“I asked myself ‘Why me? Why am I here?’ It used to hit me and I would find myself not wanting to wake up, missing flights. It was self-sabotaging. (You feel like) it is such an unreal dream, it is going to end. Let me end it. I will feel better if I end it myself. Let me have something to blame, and it is me.”

On Metro FM, the DJ further spilled how he lost a huge deal with working with Jay Z in 2017 due to his battle with low-self esteem.

“Swizz (Beatz) reached out and said Jay is looking for one song before he concludes his album. It freaked me out. I am in Milan, I couldn’t sleep. He literally called me: ‘I spoke to Jay. Jay wants a song.’ I couldn’t sleep. Then I didn’t work. I couldn’t. How do you produce a song for Jay Z? He kept saying: ‘Yo, man. I’m waiting.’ I think I failed him but subconsciously I think I wanted to. I wasn’t ready.”